Hoping

Recently I've been getting the feeling that I need to do better at keeping a journal...So lets see if I can get this started again, and also my journal at home....Hopefully.

I'll try not to back track to much, but Brandon and I had a life changing event happen at the beginning of April...Brandon unfortunately lost his job. I won't go into too much details, but there has definitely been a lot of crying and scared feelings from me...A weird thing is there have also been calming and comforting feelings. It's hard to feel like everything will be alright, when bills need to be paid...But I know they will.

Since this has happened Brandon has figured out what he wants to get his degree in {wahoo!}. He plans on going into Business Management with a minor in Finance. I'm so proud of him, he is doing so well with school and I know he'll continue to be a great example to Connor and his siblings.

What I want to ask from the few readers who do stumble upon our little blog is to ask for good thoughts and prayers for us. Brandon had a really good interview a few weeks ago that lasted 2 hours...seriously, 2 hours! Who does that? Oh wait, my amazing husband! Anyway, the person he interviewed with was out of town all last week, and so we're hoping to hear something this week. So any prayers or good thoughts about us would be great and much appreciated. Plus here's a bonus, I'll keep you all in my prayers and send good thoughts your way. See it's a win win.

This week will also be our 4th Anniversary, so stay tuned to hear some mushy thoughts I have of Brandon and our marriage!

Bi-Polar

So I just noticed that a few posts ago how happy I was. (Don't get me wrong, I'm still a happy person, just stressed currently). Then I looked at my last post. I've decided I may be bi-polar. Yes? No? Ok..maybe I'm a girl and I let my emotions run the best of me. That, and the fact that life happens.

Mountains to Climb

The past few weeks have definitely been some of the most trying in my life. I was able to read Pres. Henry B. Eyring's talk from this April General Conference called 'Mountains to Climb', and I know that our family may be going through some trials, but Heavenly Father has not forgotten about us. One of the key words that hit me was when Pres. Eyring said "If we have faith in Jesus Christ, the hardest as well as the easiest times in life can be a blessing."

He also referenced a comforting scripture, that I know is true. "And now, I, Moroni, would speak somewhat concerning these things; I would show unto the world that faith is things which are hoped for and not seen; wherefore, dispute not because ye see not, for ye receive no witness until after the trial of your faith." Ether 12:6

I am grateful for a living prophet and his disciples. I am grateful for their powerful, comforting words. I am especially grateful for the knowledge that I know my Heavenly Father lives, and his Son, Jesus Christ lives, and died for me, so that I may be able to return to him, and have an eternal family.

I am grateful for my husband, with his strong faith, and knowledge of the gospel. I am also grateful for our son, he is true happiness and light.

Of you!

For awhile we've been trying to teach Connor the phrase "I love you"

Today Brandon, Connor and I went to lunch, which was delicious! We're fans of In & Out and Sweet Tooth Fairy. Who isn't? When I dropped Brandon off at work, Brandon turned around to Connor and said, "Love you Connor." To which Connor replied "of you." Both Brandon and I just looked at each other in surprise! I love how he's learning more things to say and showing his big personality!

This afternoon after his nap I also tested him to see if he'd say "of you" again. Which he did! I love it!

My cup runneth over

I have a sure knowledge that my Heavenly Father knows me and my trials.

He answers my prayers.

Miracles happen

and

dreams come true.

Draining

These past few weeks have been emotionally draining.

My Mom has moved back down to AZ. Now my side of the family is all 12+ hrs away from us (to the North and South)...It sucks. I know she's doing what she needs to do, but...I want Connor to know them.

On a happier note, I'm teaching myself some new things...I'm proud of the fact that I'm stretching myself in ways that I always thought I would never be interested in. I'm actually having a blast! Who would've thought?

No Excuses

This year on Biggest Loser the theme is 'No Excuses'. I've been thinking a lot and I'm going to try and make this the year of no excuses as well.

One of my resolutions this year is to be a better homemaker. I want to become more crafty, prepare more meals, keep the house cleaner, etc. On the craft front I'm thinking if I can bust out one craft a month I'll be set! So far, I completed one for January and honestly, I couldn't be happier! I have a few more ideas of things to do coming up, and I'm really excited and hope they turn out!

Another goal Brandon and I constantly have is to get out of debt. Well, I took on a second job to do that, and unfortunately we've been using that money to help us get by. Honestly, we were getting by before, why do we need the extra for that? So! Hopefully we can start putting those funds to what they were intended...savings, and paying off our debt. This is a New Year, and why keep making excuses. This quote really sums up my feelings.

Sometimes I feel like I worry too much, and that's when I tend to make my excuses. I need to start focusing on the things I can improve, and not the things I cannot control. Yes we may be in debt, but I can't let that overwhelm me...We can conquer it, just not instantly :)

President Gordon B Hinckley said "It isn't as bad as you sometimes think it is. It all works out. Don't worry. I say that to myself every morning. It all works out in the end. Put your trust in God, and move forward with faith and confidence in the future. The Lord will not forsake us. He will not forsake us. If we will put our trust in Him, if we will pray to Him, if we will live worthy of His blessings, He will hear our prayers." I need to print this out and put it on my wall. Seriously, I don't know who doesn't need to hear this. Such comforting words from a warm and loving prophet!